manusia dan k.e.s.y.u.k.u.r.a.n

y is it that human nvr learned to appreciate wht they hv n always thnk tht grass r greener on the other side...?... huhu... n im one of the people who thnk grass r greener in my neighbour lawn... haih... i hv a wonderful family... super cute nieces n nephews, understanding brothers n super lovely parents... im grateful for that... especially for having a wonderful, super understanding mother... i dont hv prob thanking God for giving me them... but my real prob is, i cant seem to appreciate my bf the way i shud.. before him, i was in love wif someone who never loved me back... i always thnk of him as being super perfect, super romantic, super sweet, super caring n super everythng for me... it hurts me badly to know tht he's wif sumone else but because i loved him a lil bit too much, i played it cool in front of him n put on a fake smile konon2 happy for him while actually in my heart, i ws trembling... stupid me for being so nice not fighting for love... but thts my past... now i have second chance to love.. but this time i am loved in return... however, im so caught up wif the love tht fleets tht i forget to cherish the one in front of me... i know im blessed to have such a wonderful bf but i always seems to forget that fact... i always thnk tht hes not tht perfect, not that sweet, not that caring n bla bla bla cz i always thnk tht the previous guy is far better... i know tht in reality, he's not.. he is super everythng bcz i envisioned him to b... its not who he really is in reality.. but today two of my single frens shook me from my ridiculous dream n told me how lucky i am to hv such a wonderful bf n i shud b grateful for that... i wish i cud look at him through the eyes of others so tht i cud learn to appreciate him... i love him but i thnk im too caught up wif my past tht i didnt see the shine of gold in front of me... hby, forgive me for hurting u n always thnk of u as 2nd best... now i realized tht u r the one made for me n d flaws u hv is only because God wants me to fill n d flaws i hv only u can fix... Love u sweet darling n i promise to cherish our relationship... <3