kdg2 org yg plg kite syg la yg plg susah untuk dcintai...

Ada ketikanya insan yg kita sayang, membuatkan kita dalam keadaan teruji
Ada ketikanya insan yg kita sayang, membuatkan kita terkeliru
Ada ketikanya insan yg kita sayang, selalu membuatkan kita terluka
Ada ketikanya insan yg kita sayang, membuatkan kita terkilan
Ada ketikanya insan yg kita sayang, membuat rasa sabar kita kian menipis
Ada ketikanya insan yg kita sayang, mengguris hati kita hingga menitis airmata
Namun kita ttp menyayanginya krn dia sentiasa bertakhta di hati kita...=)

to hold on or to let go...

       I am here again one more time.... urrrghhhh..... x suke.... i only update ths blog when im in trouble n hv no one to talk to... hmmmm.... rite now im in a big shit.... after being with my bf for 5years, i dunno why suddenly i feel like we r not meant to b together... i hv never felt like this before... i awlays 160% sure that we'll be together n grow old as husband n wife... but i dunno why suddenly everythng seems so blur lately.... its like we'r drifting apart.... everythng seems so different nowadays.... no more gentle kiss on the hand, no more sweet2 talk n no more laughter n smile... everythng seems so stiff n dull.... i know u r bz but i am bz too... evn whn i am super bz, i will still think of u... in fact i miss u more whn im bz... in fact i will go for meal break wif phone in my hand hoping u will reply my msg n i will sleep with phone next to my pillow so that i can hear when u call... but u never called... u only call when u r driving to or back from work... u only call when u r waiting for u friends... thats the only time u have for me... i dunno wht goes wrong but it really hurt me inside.... is it me or u dont love me anymore.... i jst dont hv any answer.... mayb u loved me n u jst hang on to the love u had for me.... thats why u r stiff now cz u dont love the present me, but u loved the old me... u jst hang on to the memories...  i love u so much that it hurt to let go all the dreams i dream for our future but to stay in this relationship, i really need to revive our love.... when i say u dont love me, u'll get mad n offended... i dunno how to talk to u so that it wont make u mad... but i really need to find the answer.... u said u r tired... i am tired too... but i never made it as excuse not to b happy around u... in fact i'll b happier when i'm with u.... but it hurt me badly whn i cant make u smile anymore... seeing me doesnt excites u... i dunno wht to do or wht to say jst to see u smile again...  eventhough im not happy in ths relationship as i should be, imagining myself without u is even more hurtful cz i've loved u a bit more than i should... i hope that u understand that its not that i see u as not perfect... i'v loved u perfectly despite ur flaws but i jst wish that u love the imperfect me perfectly too.... not jst by words but more by action cz to tell u the truth, without ur words, i dont feel ur love anymore....